January 16, 2002

School says, "FATALITY!"

Ahh yes. This is indeed Texas. What an odd state this is. This is the state that annually makes or breaks Ford. Without Texas, Ford ain’t got nothin’. Simple proof of this is the fact that 1 out of every 2 commercials during primetime on local TV is for a freakin’ Ford truck. I swear if I meet that guy with that freakin’ voice saying, “FORD TRUCKS! BUILT FORD TOUGH!”, I’ll be sure to give him a Casino ending beating.

So over the past few days there has been an unbelievable amount of anger and rage just coursing through my veins. I’m not entirely sure from where I derive this anger but the fact is its there and it makes me lash out at many simple things in life that shouldn’t make one angry on a regular basis. I wish I could bottle this rage up for later when I’ll actually need it. Actually though, its working out well for me though cause this anger gives me new found energy which gets me to get work done which is a great great thing. Still though as Sting put it, “..be still my beating heart.”

My life is at that juncture now where I’m sort of realizing that some of the ideas and theories in my head that I thought were “for sure” are just goop. Its time to tear down the glory of the old thoughts and start anew. Stagnancy never did anyone much good. One example of a new idea slowly taking hold: Being well dressed doesn’t necessarily have to be an uncomfortable experience nor does it have to denote any level of snobbery. Yet another example of an new idea: just because you’ve been tight with someone for a long time doesn’t mean they owe you anything emotionally. And lastly: superficiality is easy, genuine emotions are hard to capture and experience and this experience is even harder to repeat. Many people have the first part down but are mere novices when it comes to the second part.

In my last update I had said that this time the break at home was an eye opener. This was primarily due to the following realizations:

  1. Some friends in life are best for only a certain aspect of your life. After that aspect of life has played itself through, its best to just let them fade away and move on.
  2. I think my parents may have finally realized that I’m all grown up.
  3. Our little apartment is indeed little. Its time my parents moved into bigger digs.
  4. America has a way of changing people.
  5. Pizza will just never taste the same again. You too can feel the same way. All you have to do is go to DeLorenzo’s in Trenton and sample the goods.

Also I’d like to have a moment of silence to pay solemn respects to my Roarin’ Ford Tempo which passed away on December 19th. I just hope that the salvage man that came to take it away treated that dear car with the level of respect it deserves. I will always remember you our dear white 1991 Ford Tempo L. You were a black hole for money, but the service you gave us and the accidents you protected us from will never be forgotten.

Also I just wanted to let yous guys know that my updates are probably going to be exclusively during the weekends and not as frequent as I’d like them to be. During the week I’ll only be able to post gimp text blurb only updates like this one. Also I just wanted to let yous guys know that its super funny when friends just come over on a random Wednesday night and you have to help them in an emergency. That emergency being having to finish a bottle of Vodka that just has to be finished, and then having the whole thing turn into raucous debauchery.

Stupid shouts out to all my international visitors. In particular: Vicki lah, Terry & someone from Indonesia whose name I do not have.

Next update coming up sometime this weekend.

Posted by Mr. Keyur at January 16, 2002 12:00 PM | TrackBack
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